And I need to save them;

but who’s going to save me..


I’ve become very aware of what I promise people recently. Not that I’ve ever take my words lightly before (I don’t think), but it seems important to actually keep up to your words rather than making false promises you never fulfill.

I don’t know if it would make any difference to anyone else, as it seems to be a social norm that people are use to other not acting upon their words; but it certainly make me feel good that I’ve kept my promises.

I am scared.

It’s time like these that makes me doubt why I am doing my degree completely. The exam on the module tomorrow..similar to the past 2 where I fear for whether I can pass.

Someone hold me?


'A lizard? They're wrong, she looks more like a hippo than a lizard.'


So uni has just started this Monday and since then it has been crazy hectic. Moving into the new house, organising work from my modules and preparing for interviews to hopefully get an industrial placement.

I’ve got a zillion things on my agenda to sort out and to top it, relatives keep saying how ill my grandma is.
I’d put down everything on my hands, to fly back over to Hong Kong and be by your side every single day if I can. I’d do it if I can.

But I can’t as circumstances won’t allow it..
Please get better. Please.
You promised me you’d be at my graduation.
You promised me you’d go to my wedding.

And you’ve silently promised to always love me and has never broken that promise. As you’ve shown in every day I spent with you how much you love me.

You are not just a star to me, but a pocket of universe.
I miss you.
I love you.
I am sorry I am not by your side.
I would if I could.
Please know that I would if I could..


My Totoro plush with the newly bought wallet! 
Aw he always look so happy, :D

Title: Make it With You Artist: Bread 79 plays

Hey have you ever tried, 
Really reaching out for the other side? 
I maybe climbing on rainbows 
But, baby here goes. 

Dreams there for those who sleep, 
Life is for us to keep, 
And if you’re wond’ring 
What this song is leading to 
I want to make it with you 
I really think that we can make it girl. 

No, you don’t know me well, 
'N' ev'ry little thing only time will tell, 
But you believe the things that I do. 
And we’ll see it through. 

Life can be short or long, 
Love can be right or wrong, 
And if I chose the one 
I’d like to help me through, 
I’d like to make it with you 
I really think that we can make it girl. 

Baby you know that 
Dreams they’re for those who sleep, 
Life is for us to keep 
And if I chose the one 
I’d like to help me through, 
I’d like to make it with you 
I really think that we can make it girl.

That’s what real love amounts to - letting a person be what he really is. Most people love you for who you pretend to be. To keep their love, you keep pretending - performing. You get to love your pretense. It’s true, we’re locked in an image, an act - and the sad thing is, people get so used to their image, they grow attached to their masks. They love their chains. They forget all about who they really are. And if you try to remind them, they hate you for it, they feel like you’re trying to steal their most precious possession.
People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.

Jim Morrison